How do we know the mind of God? How do we know what his will is in a specific situation? Do we go right or left? How do we respond when we are faced with two options and we don’t know which to choose? Does God really listen to us and answer our prayers?
Monday, January 29th, 2018 @ 1:30am
Fauquier County, VA USA
I roll over in bed, not exactly certain what time it is, but I can hear Dad moving around upstairs. And I know that any minute now he’ll be coming downstairs to get me. He and I are headed out again, this time for an eight hour drive out to Kentucky to look at only one house this time. However, this time, we’ve done MUCH more research on this house and feel very confident that this one will be worth it. Dad opens the door and calls me. I groan, NOT an eaarrrly morning person!
Within 15 minutes we were on the road, I’m driving this time. Definitely grateful for Coffee this morning! By 7:30, we’re most of the way there and have just swapped seats, because I am getting a little sleepy. We’re scheduled to meet the listing agent at a Pilot Travel Station in Williamsburg, Kentucky and he will lead us the last 12 minutes to the house. At 9:30am, we’re waiting for him to arrive at the station. Once he does, we follow him the rest of the way to the house. The agent has sort of prepared us for the worst as far as the drive in goes, but contrary to the last 4 houses we saw in Kentucky, the drive in to this one is WAY better. The other four were more or less parked next to what felt like a trailer park, whereas the houses around this one are much better looking. The house has somewhere around 50 acres of land that comes with the property in three parcels. We pull up to the driveway and the realtor gets out and shows us the lower part of the property. So far so good!
As we pull up the driveway, we realize the driveway is steeper than we had originally thought. The agent shows us the house, garage, playhouse and second garage and we also realize that the house is MUCH smaller than we had thought. The next step is to take a look at the land.
We walked all over that property. The biggest problem with it is that the house is plopped in the only flat area on a mountain. The whole rest of the area is not condusive to having dogs or fencing for them. Sure, the pyrs would love the mountain, but there is no easy way to put up fencing to keep them in. Great hunting though! The house is just a little to small for us to live in as well.
The whole way home, Dad and I reevaluated our whole situation, all the intricacies of it, every possible reason we have for moving, beat it out flat in every way possible. And that’s when we begin to think that this is just not going to work. We’ve run out of the money we need to continue traveling and looking at houses, everyone we spoke with has said that what we are looking for in a house and land vs what we are willing to pay is just not possible, as far as I know, everything we’ve asked God to give us if it is his will has fallen through and to top it off, the inspection report has come back and they want so many things fixed that it’s no longer an option for us.
Tuesday, January 30th, 2018 @ 3:07 pm
Fauquier County, VA USA
So that’s that. Another chapter closed in that realm. We are still moving forward with the sale of the land so far as we know, a builder will be coming to put a house on the land next door. So we don’t know exactly what the will of God was concerning this whole process. We’ve hammered out a few ideas, maybe God wanted us to sell the land adjoining and he had to orchestrate it this way because honestly, we never would have considered selling it if we hadn’t been planning on moving. Perhaps he has a special plan for the money from the sale. Maybe there’s someone we will be able to minister to when the house is built and someone moves in. Maybe someone was blessed by our story of walking through this and seeking God’s will. Maybe there were valuable lessons we learned through this that we wouldn’t have any other way. We don’t know exactly why and may never know exactly why either. But that’s the beauty of following Christ. Because you can know for 100% fact that no matter where we are and what we do, ultimately God’s plan will be fulfilled in the end and the end result will be the same. I feel sorry for those who don’t have that same assurance. That’s why we see so many commiting suicide and changing their gender. Because they can’t trust that God made them who they are and that he has a plan that includes them.
So how do we know the mind of God? How do we know what his will is in a specific situation? Do we go right or left? How do we respond when we are faced with two options and we don’t know which to choose? Does God really listen to us and answer our prayers? What do we do when we think he wants us to do something, we chase it and then it turns out we were wrong? Have we sinned and walked away from God’s will in doing so?
To illustrate this, let me draw from a story in the Bible. In Genesis Chapter 26, God tells Isaac to a specific place and that he will bless him there. He says specifically not to go to another land that Isaac was considering going to but to dwell in Gerar. So in Verses 18-22, Isaac begins to dig a well in the valley. Now wells were very important if you didn’t have a stream or river nearby because not only do you need something to drink but your cattle need it too! And Isaac had a lot of cattle! So Isaac digs this well and the herdman of the area fought over it, complaining that the water rightfully belonged to them. So Isaac put all that time on that well just to have it taken away. So he goes to another spot and does it again. And the same scenario repeats itself. Finally the third well he digs, no one fought him over it.
Now God knew that all that would happen. So why didn’t he just say to Isaac, “Don’t dig there, go over here and dig.”? Wouldn’t it have been easier to do it that way? I believe the reason it happened that way is because there were lessons Isaac needed to learn through that process. And I believe it has been the same with us in this process. God wanted to teach us something and he used this course of action to do it.
Finally, as a shout out to all of you who have prayed for us, supported us and loved us through this entire process, we are ever grateful to you. We may not always know where God is leading, but we know he is leading. He’s leading you, he’s leading me, he’s leading my family. I have been blessed by the way my parents have walked through this, the way my siblings have worked throught this and the way those of you have walked in this. And I’ll admit, it hasn’t always been easy. There have been days where my patience had worn thin and I was literally seconds away from snapping. I can’t even imagine how my parents must have felt sometimes. God had special strength for them in himself.
So to you, the reader, keep walking the road, even if you don’t understand. It’s a journey, it always is. Whether the road is easy or smooth, it’s still a journey. And we’re on it together, upholding when one falls. There were times in the journey where if it had been me, I’d have thrown in the hand towel and quit. I didn’t want to move, I love my area, my Church family, my life here. But I also realized that it’s not my life anymore. I’ve given the key of my life to someone greater. And I’ve walked my own way before and it’s not a good road. So I’m letting him lead. The end result is WAAYY better!
Trusting, following, serving him,
(This three part post really has been written at intervals throughout this process, much like a journal. However, I have not had a chance to post it all until just now. I hope it blesses you as it really is a picture of my journey throughout this process as I walked through this. Also, I’d like to personally thank the Wilkes Team for inspiring me over 6 years ago to begin keeping a personal journal, it’s now one of the most valuable possesions I own. I wasn’t always faithful to keep up with it at first, but now it’s very important part of my devotional time. It’s the main reason posts like this are even possible! Thank you!)
(Also, continue to pray. the contract may still go through if the client decides to live with the problems the inspection turned up and then we will be forced to find somewhere else to live very quickly!)